My Spiritual Awakening Experience, Part Two: Undressing Reality
A Clean Slate
Once I’d quit my job, it wasn’t long before my relationship ended, and I moved to a new location. Without the constraints that had been shackling my freedom and corroding my soul, I was now a free man. The Universe stood seductively before me. I now had all the time I needed to undress reality, and get to the very core of existence.
I understood that the only way I could effectively undress reality was through learning to meditate. But, like most people, I had no idea how to do this. My mind was typically a frenzied place, in which the concepts of stillness, emptiness, and clarity were absolutely foreign.
I decided that the best thing to do would be to would be to take some form of psychedelic, which would naturally induce a trance state. Once I knew what a trance state felt like, I reasoned, I would be able to induce it on my own.
My Salvia Experience
I was drawn to Salvia (Salvia Divinorum) because it was natural, non-addictive, did not need to be smoked, could be purchased legally, and has no side effects. In fact, trial studies have shown it to be very effective in treating Cancer and Alzheimer’s Disease. It also has a long history of shamanic usage.
Deciding it would be best to do it first thing in the morning, I locked myself up in a darkened room, and began the ritual of chewing the bitter, liquorice-like leaves.
After about twenty minutes of doing this, my eyes closed, and in the lotus flower position, I began to notice some effects. A deep sense of joy and peace suffused my being, and I began to laugh uncontrollably. It was like someone had just whispered to me the punchline of The Big Cosmic Joke, and I realized there was nothing to worry about – ever! As though my laughter was exposing the sham of existence itself.
Unlocking the Crown Chakra
My laughter gave way to wonder as I began to observe sensations I had never experienced before. My consciousness no longer seemed to be defined by the limits of my body. I was expanding beyond myself, and merging with the life forces around me.
This sensation was experienced most intensely in the top of my head. I felt stirrings in what I now know as The Third Eye, or the Ajna Chakra. But, even more powerfully, the crown of my head seemed to be opening and becoming one with the sky above it. It was almost as though someone had taken off my scalp, like removing the lid from a jar, and was pouring the contents of Heaven inside it.
My vision was beset by swirling, prismatic colours, which had nothing to do with the darkened room I sat in. I visited multi-dimensional, Dali-esque landscapes, in which everything was several things at once, and always transforming into something else. I saw dragons, serpents, goddesses, and whole other realms.
I came into contact with beings who seemed to know me intimately. They welcomed me back, as though I’d been on holiday, and was now returning home. I felt a deep-rooted nostalgia, as though this was where I’d come from all along.
For the first time in my life, everything made perfect sense.
I was at one with everything.
I was happy.
Meditation and Beyond
After this, I felt a deep love and appreciation for nature. I felt connected to everyone and everything. Everything was just an extension of infinite consciousness. Where could I look, and not see The Divine staring right back at me? I knew that each and everyone of us has the power of God inside us – a power only a few of us have used or even begun to fathom.
I spent the next few months meditating as much as possible in the local forests and on river banks, drawing on the potent energy of nature. I did not need Salvia to make me feel that way anymore: I could just close my eyes, and I was instantly at peace, able to visit faraway places at will.
Many years later, I am happier and healthier than I’ve ever been. I spend my time doing the things that I was born to do, and am devoted to making the world a better, more enlightened place. I realize, now, that happiness is not something we can ever gain from the outside, but is our basic operating state – what Buddhists refer to as ‘Buddha Nature.’ Our Happiness a muscle we can strengthen or neglect at will.
And meditation is still the best way to strengthen that muscle.
Only you can choose to be happy...
...No one can choose that happiness for you
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